yaz Rebel haron Kid’s blog

i look at my brothers, sisters and mom,
no matter how full the house is, to my eyes, it's still empty.
i hear laughter and enjoy the company of the kids, but the family isn't complete, it never will be.
i somehow feel like i knew you well to believe that if you were still here, you could change things for the better.
every night i sleep at the place your bed used to be,
i try so hard to remember the times i was with you, i guess the memories are locked away with you.
i can only remember when i used to bring my coloring books to the hospital and when my mum's eyes filled up with tears when she told me to kiss you goodbye for the last time.
one happy memory i can recall is that nice cologne you put on, and that english hair cream.
those memories can never be erased, i was only a little girl, but your departure plays the biggest role.
i don't know how and why you seem like the most important man in my life.
i now know why, i'm very shy when it comes to men, i grew up without one...
i  don't know how to be myself when i'm around them.
i become vulnerable and weak, i turn into a fake, a liar...

A good soldier never leaves a man behind,
he fights for what he believes in,
he stands for and with his men,
if he is the general, he doesn't stand back and gives orders,
he leads the army to war and commands himself to win for his army,

A good soldier listens and trains well,
he never gives up,
bullets will pierce his skin and flesh, but his strong will will help him survive,

A good soldier doesn't need the greatest man-made weapon to survive,
he needs courage, skills, and God to be his weapons,
enemies fear these,
a soldier can be trained like a machine,
but not have the courage built in him,

A good soldier doesn't fight for glory and fame,
he fights for everyone including himself,
to sacrifice oneself for others,
is noble and non-selfish,

I want to be a good soldier...

Break it

Get your god damn asses up front, move it, feel the funk in your soul, don't let nobody stop you from doing shit, stand up and stand the fuck out, do that pledge shit.

Do it for your brothers, your sisters and yourself, a team stays a team. Don't be fuckin out on them.
You say i'm bull, well i think you're shit.WHAT!! Top That motherfucker!!!

Move it, move it, get to it, time's a wastin, pour your drink , there isn't a limit, the cops ain't comin not till you freak out, hurry! the neighbourhood's coming, get your team and start stepping!!

Life is a bitch, but i really really love it, it's not pretentious...It never gives a warning when it wants to be a lil more bitchier than usual....i've gone through a lotta bullshit in my life, and bullshit makes me feel alive, doing good deeds, lying to get out of major trouble, no backstabbing that's for sure, saving asses, my life couldn't be any better than this.

If i had a choice to marry a prince, i think i'll reject his proposal, i can't get into any trouble if i'm stuck in my house everyday you know?....i like getting into trouble, it's fun, i sound retarded i know...but that's how my life is like, that's how my brain works...

I try my best to do the craziest things, the more back breaking the more fun...

You know we'll win no matter what

Let's all buy a T-shirt that says "we don't need men, men need us",
Let's all go out and give a "stink eye" to all those men who don't deserve to live,
Why is it that we get hurt more than you guys?
Allthough we're vulnerable at that time, i assure you that we grow stronger at heart and experience wise,
We are not physically stronger, but we are emotionally,
And though we cry like the flowing river,
One day, we will stand as tall as the statue of liberty, strengths of our hearts and minds as armour, and beauty and intelligence as weapons,
the war on sexuality has begun

If i have to fast for 365 days, i will do it...

if  you want me to race you up the mountain, i will do it...

if you want me to overcome my fear just for that, i will do it...

if you want me to abandon technology, i will still do it...

i would do most anything for you...

just for your approval...

i want to be the first child of the late Haron...

to rebel for my dreams...

to crawl my way up from earth's core to reach for all things impossible...

to be the one to have the chance to join the army, to be the airforce's mechanical engineer, to be a skilled assassin,

and to prove to my people, that i can reach for the impossible...

i want to be the one who opens the door to impossibilities

Kellyalreadygone

A new chapter begins, restarting life, at the beginning of a new one, doing new things, that should've been done long ago. but sometimes you come, and visit me in my mind and my dreams, and yet i still take you in as a friend.

I know that you think about us, i know that you hate me for what happened,

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

i want to see you before the sun comes to life

i want to touch you before she kisses her prince goodbye

i want to sail away with you

on to a mystical journey where all my dreams and magical creatures come to life

i want to finish this race, this life, this adventure with you,

i dream of you when night falls,

i want to re-live this day with you in the next world

i want US

You're not bringing me down,

you're not weakening me,

you're just another speck of dirt i find on the fuckin ground,

so small and so pointless,

i stand back up,

as i regained strength,

i shall fight you back,

a single slut won't ever bring me down, nor an army of whores,

so fuck you, and your army of skanks,

as you're just another simple lock for me to pick,

i am my lawyer, i am my judge, i am the jury and this is my court,

and you are GUILTY

I have been waiting for the time,

I have been fighting for the day so i could see your face once more,

I yearn for the pressure of your fingers resting against my skin,

Though they push us by burrying our prides, I still wait for their soft words,

I pray for their blessings, I pray for the truth,

In decades to come, and although i bleed for you,

I shall not rest until the gates open upon your presence,

We will be together once more my darling,

Do not fret.